abah..
if 1 day, i'm not being here..staying with u..
i hope u will forgive me what have i done to u, hurting u..
don't forget me...
semalam, masa amik abah keluar wad, tunggu abngah selesaikan bil, then sit dgn akak n abah..
"nasrul tau x psl abah?"abah tnya. abah x bagitau nasrul (my little brother) psl dia masuk wad, then saya ckp "abah x bg telefon dia kan?" "tapi akak dh telefon semalam dia n bgtau nasrul pasal abah".
"dia cakap ape?" tnya abah..
"dia marah sbb x bgtau..dia nak tgk abah, tapi akak dh terangkan keadaan sebenarnya", kata akak..
abah senyum..
but i look inside his eyes...huhu..
ada takungan air..jernih..yang ditahan2..
lama..kemudian abah pejam mata dia, seolah2 mcm de sumting dlm mata,.dia pegang mata dia, tahu dia lap air mata..abah..huhu..
this is kali kedua i see his tears..
1st time,
when nasrul kt HSA, dlm wad pembedahan utk buang buah pinggang, waiting for him..saya sit beside abah, but i see it..the tears..pertama kali melihat air mata seorang abah..
i don't know how much i love u..
i don't know how much i hate u..
i don't know how much i can repay u for take care of me until now..
i don't know how much i need u..
i don't know if i can live without u..
abah..
rasa mcm nak amik sakit abah tu..
biar saya yang tanggung..
ya Allah, sembuhkan lah abah dari segala penyakit yang dihadapinya, berikanlah dia hidayah-Mu, jadikanlah dia hamba yang soleh disisi-Mu ya allah, sementara hayatnya masih ada..amin ya rabbal alamin..
amin..
abah..ain akan sentiasa doa utk abah..amin..
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